well hello again!!

back afte a totally smashing festive season! twas a good few weeks to be had by all!!

ok, now that my mum's gone i can drop the shit!

nye was awesome, as vividly described by nick and the facebook photos, tho i cant say i remember alot of them.... i do however recall watching the fireworks and thinking how boring they were!! yes, thats right, im calling the fireworks BORING!!!

so after we left sof's, james and i went back to his place and didnt have sex (DIDNT SEE THAT COMING, LOl!!!) mostly cos i was tired and there were other things on my mind... god i sound OLD... 'hunny, i have a headache'

got home the next morning at 8.30.... 5 hrs and 30 mins after cerfew, bullshit i was gona be home by 3am!! and for a lovely effort i got 'grounded'.... whatever... not really different to normal life!

new years day i spent cleaning windows then catching up with isie, eric, bec, janet, sally and another bec... and james, he came too :P after fish and chips at the rotunda at sandy we went back to isies place and did the pool thing for a bit, then james and i went back to his place and did the us thing for a bit

so what else is news??? this is probably the last blog post before i go :( i leave on the 30th for thoes who dont know

and i dont have proper msn anymore, only web messenger :(

ive been filling out lots of forms lately, and getting my shit together... i got me and iron today, most depressing thing i ever thought i buy... even the boring sports bra was more interesting!! and thats saying something!!

and now i need to rant... not being a school means i dont get to see my best friends every day, which means things build up, and i dont feel like haveing a heated phone conversation at 12...

everything is falling apart, i dont see you as much and im so scared that when i go it'll happen all over again, except this time i really wont know about it because i wont be here. and you were good enough to hide it from your best friend, who is atlewats friend enough not to tell me

on top of all that, i wonder, so much, do you ever think of her??????????????? its driving me insane! literally, you tell me not to think too hard, but this is all i think of... and i bet that when i come back you wont even notice me, because im like a toy you take down to play with when you're bored....

and thats SO not everything i have to say, but its all i can say without making it obvious... and even as it is i rekon you can pick it... grrrr

hopeing everony has a better summer then me...

iz xx